"Those who can't do, teach. And flunk those who can."
I hate teaching. I was always meant to be a bad student, not a good teacher. My students hate me, and I hate them twice as much. I bore them, and they bore me. They judge me by my heritage, and I judge them back by their physical appearance. No love lost here, can you tell? My friend and colleague Summer tells me I haven't been teaching long enough to complain about it. I don't need to be in this profession for long to know that I'm just not cut out for the job. But, Goddamnit, it's the only job available to me in this country! The only thing I can't complain about is the pay. I know I sound like such a brat just saying this, but I guess it's my exhaustion speaking right now. And it's getting tired, I know, but I want out. The search is not over.
The dialogue at Dar Al-Hekma College earlier today was a complete rip-off, IMHO. Where do they come off calling it an open forum when all the questions posed were left unanswered and skirted? What a disappointment. It could've been a great step forward for Saudi women, especially since the cream-of-the-media-crop was present: BBC, Fox, CNN. But questions such as "Why does the American media continue to project Saudi society in a negative light?" were obviously not the ones they wanted asked. Ambassador Hughes sounded nervous and fake the whole time. I can just imagine my students' reactions to the whole affair tomorrow in class when we discuss their feedback. They're probably expecting me to defend The West, since I'm teaching them Western culture and linguistics. I hate teaching college students [in addition to hating teaching in general]. I want to be on their side, not up there on the spotlight.
My faulty memory is a disgrace. I met a lot of people earlier today at the college, most of whom I have already met at some dinner function or other, apparently. Is there any way to ask a person his/her name when he/she remembers yours? Apart from the awkward one?
I was seated beside this obnoxious American lady during the first half of the dialogue; she's been in Jeddah for a month and already she wants to leave. She says her tarha [veil] is considered a hazard in Wisconsin where she's from, because some thief or mugger may easily come up behind her and strangle her with it. Thus her extreme distaste for it. I don't think I've ever heard of anyone attacked in such a manner. Hmmm... Death By Tarha. I had to leave her by herself, I was very uncomfortable with the ocean of difference between her and myself.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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3 comments:
ino a kiyasokaran ai a 'anonynous'? baden diipamethang!
anyway, giyanan i pimbidaan ta, ari aken. saken na i never dreamt of becoming (or wanting to be) a teacher, as in da ko den mapikir, when i was younger pero iphoon ko very first time a kiyapakatepeng aken mangdao na i knew a teaching is what i want to do! opama na aya aken calling. hehehe:)
LOOOL. Owai-ba, kiyasokaran aya a biyongaw, gyotodn oba a adn a labut ta-on a!? Haha.
Aynaw, Drag, grabi ko 'challenging' angkaya-a kapangda-o sa arab. Very discriminatory siran, especially igira man oto a kiyasipatan iran a knaba ta merikano. Aya karugn iyan na aya diyakn di ipangda-o na inglis na aya kabaya iran na so maestro a bulaw i buk ago biro i mata. Anda ta tu-ona a biro aya a mata?! Ubu o katawi iran a miyanolo solo a Mranao angka-i a di kiran di mangn-da-o na odi siran dun kag-ti!! Haha.
Seriously, I think it's the circumstances around my teaching that pulls me down. Di ta paka-ato.
ey, ino ka di phakaato eh mapasang ka a wata?
na, na, oba iran kabaya na bolaw i bok ago biro imata na pamasa ka san sa konstasts lens a biro na go ngka sosolota nago tharo-a ngka kiran a sa didalem o kombong ka na bolaw ka i bok. oba siran di phaniwala na ododi ngka a olo ngka sa agua oxinada ka aden mabolaw na paki-ilayn ka sa ngkanan a mga diyantengel! hehehe:)
osto a malo maregen so kapangdao sa inglis sa mga tao sa ped a inged (balabao so asian) ka datar o ba da ba iran reketa tiwala o di ta kawkawsian! eh, miyamatay! so den so ba mas mapasang a mga merikano ai ah! madidi giya a mga estudyante ami a apon ka malo iran den pekhailay so katao o pinoy sa kapag-inglis. igira a aden a estudyante a datar oba baden sasayan na pesayan ako mambo! aden pephakatanod so tao! hehehe:)
phambliin aken ko pekhababayaan so kasorat sa meranao. kagiya a da den a mipembityarai ta sii a tanto sa meranao! ainao, ainao...
na giyoto ka miyakatas.:)
ay labs yu aken seka, ari aken!:)
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